I don't have any friends, nor irl nor virtual, for me its always difficult to be part of a group. it always feels i am being left out, no vibing, not matching.

I thought it would be easy to join tech communities and be part of them. But as life happened, that also became hard. Now i am a loner, sitting in bedroom all day, not going out. I stopped going to office also, wfh all day. Hopefully its a start so they don't bother much. But its like I am not connecting with people. Maybe work-wise, cause i am the only platform, devops, cloud infra, backend guy. No one to talk, discuss the idea. Its same here as there. And explaining to people who are in different domain, not working out.

Forum based communities, feels too much votes based, I have couple of questions but mostly they go unheard. Chat based communities are too fast to even understand for me whats going on. I tried discord but its the same feeling, being left out, introvert in room full of extroverts.

Even if I had one friend it could have been a bit better. But unfortunately no one.

So, right now, I am just trying to find my place, somewhere I can fit. Ask some questions, get some answers, put my opinions, suggest some ideas.

I feel communities might exist but are mostly closed and unfortunately I am not loudest in the room for the open extroverted communities.

Ai agents feel a bit better, i can talk with them, chat, and i always treat them as a coworker, pair programmer.

Still they aren't human.