Lost my father, single guy, 37 years old, I was employed not in my field of education, but it was very curious as more I was reading your story it was like I was reading mine (with some few differences)

I was in the same situation, but in the last five years I changed slowly but steadily to a positive mindset

I was rised with the idea of becoming stable financially, get a wife and 2 kids. This idea was not due of my parents but I was imbibing the 'unattended script' of the society we are living in

More I get older and more I realize that I was in an infinite rotating water sink. Nothing was really working 'as recommended' by the society. And here began the negative infinite sink effect for me

I was keeping struggling for long periods and little by little I was discovering that all people around me and literally all people around this world have their own specific troubles in life. It may sounds weired, since this fact is known by all. But how about feeling it as a reality and understanding that really no one's life is pink.

That was a good starting point for me, then I began to take some of my spare time to think about life, I mean thinking about 'childish life concept' I was driven in from the start. Yes it is as harsh and extreme mind reaction when you are struggling. And you finish easily in the rebels side just like that

And there again I started to ask my self, is it really the solution to switch from a struggling mindset to a rebel mindset ? 'Clearly not' I was telling myself. And here I felt I found the right thinking: 'how about a balance ?'

'Balance' was the pivot point for me. And I started to climb all the way till the problem root: I was living a materialistic life, money, wife, kids, car, home, travel... Not even a second for my soul health in between!

I have just started to look to the side of religion to nourish my soul while nourishing my body and my desires with the materialistic side of life. I just discovered that having something bigger, greater and more valuable to believe in, than just to believe in few money cents, was making my life more enjoyable to live again

The other day, my mother dropped one of my favorite mugs, she was telling me how she was sorry to broke it while it's my favourite! I was feeling happiness to tell here that's nothing more than a simple cup, and I'm grateful that she didn't get hurt. I was feeling it coming from the heart.

I realize more than before that emotions, belief, money and all the stuff have their place in our life. Never to focus on one side and forget one of the others.

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