i don't believe in "happy life", i will not die until i finish my legacy, even if i lived after,

i will choose my dramatic end, this life is full of drakness and evil, people are the true devil but there's alot more who suffering from this cancer, the greed, the world that full of clowns n marionettes who try to achieve others AGENDA,

there's alot of people who needs to feel the humanity, we all are not clowns and bunch of fools,

in the depth of our true dark life there's alot who suffers from mental illness,blindness, paralysis, cancer, those people aching and dying slowly, well i died a few times later inside me,

i consider my self a dead clown, i didn't choose to end my self because i know god wants me, u know god uses us, and yeah, this will be achieved no matter how it costs,

iam counting my suicide time, and its paralleling with the time i deliever my legacy.