Throw away, obviously.

I've been wanting to make this post for a while but not sure the right way to do it.

I made my living playing poker for most of my adult life (im 28), after dropping out of school and working $10/hour jobs for a couple years. Never made a ton of money.. ~25k a year on 10-20 hours a week.

I fell backward into some free lance web work, fast forward a couple years and I am making 70k a year full time in a small town as the stake holder in a $2M revenue/year website.

All through doing free lance work, and now full time (and throughout my entire education) I always always procrastinate until the last minute.

Part of the problem is that I have always been able to put forth 10% effort (or really, 100% effort 10% of the time) on 'assigned' things and get A's or deliver to clients or whatever.

I was fine with this most of my life. But it's got worse and worse, to the point where I just let things slide that I don't really want to do, even though they are important to me that have them done. It's only when it's either a) dire, or b)something I have a desire to do that anything gets done.

I really thought taking a full time job, and being accountable and what not would force me to buckle down. But I've found I can put forth 10% at work, get everything that is expected of me done, and get praised.

Please don't take this as a bragging post for that statement. I am sure lots of people here know what I am talking about. If a decent hacker was my boss they'd see through my BS in a week. I actually am good at what I do, and make things happen for them that is magic as far as anyone in the company can tell.. but I do it while browsing the internet 25 hours a week.. granted a chunk of that is researching the types of things that make me valuable to them.

I guess my question is: WTF? I am in this slump.. I have nothing whatsoever to complain about; but my life is one big game of "tomorrow I will.." and I don't know how to break the cycle.

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